American Banana-story X – by Ms. C.

27 mai 2012

Banana way to go...

« Bob Sweeney: There was a moment, when I used to blame everything and everyone for all the pain and suffering and vile things that happened to me; that I saw happen to my people. Used to blame everybody. Blamed white people, blamed society, blamed God. I didn’t get no answers ’cause I was asking the wrong questions. You have to ask the right questions.
Derek Vinyard: Like what?
Bob Sweeney: Has anything you’ve done made your life better? »

Now, here is a line from “American History X” that gets me every time.  This line is the turn-point in a story of racism, neo-Nazism, violence and downright intolerance.  From that moment on, a tale of scorching duality starts to ring with hope.

So, “Have the things you’ve done made your life better ?”.  Somehow, I was asking myself this very question on my way to work this morning.  This line has actually been following me for years now and yet, I have done nothing about it.  I should ask myself this damn question at the wake of everyday.  And mostly, try to answer it at some point !

Well, contrarily to the characters in the movie, my life is not one of extremes, whether good or bad.  It is the life of a simple person, who works hard, play s soft and tries to take it easy when possible.

Yet, this little life is full of conflict and hurt.  And what if this question were the key to some form of happiness?  What if, by some trick of magic, we could change everything and stop doing the things that hurt altogether.  “Yes we can” change every thing, end these self-destructive habits, stop trying to please everyone for fear of actually doing what’s right.  Do it.  Act.

As I am writing this, the movie is on.  I am not watching it alone.  There is a person is sitting next to me, on the couch, playing with his Blackberry.  Not paying attention.  Perfectly content with a life of nice clothes, fine cars and trendy restaurants.  Probably the kind of person that will never be put off-balance by a movie, a picture, a work of art…  or a question.  And it pisses me off.

Speaking of which, American History X has another great line : “Hate is baggage.  Life is too short to be pissed off all the time.”   So, instead of fighting the people who don’t care, who live happily with accepted facts and easy convictions, first things first : stop blaming them for your unhappiness and choose your own path, with the right companions on the journey.  Change what you can change.

In the past, I was always digging my way out of dead-ends. Today, the sun is shining; I’ve got my sunglasses on and am cruising smoothly on the interstate in a Greyhound bus.  Someone from those question-less days once told me: “My way or the highway”…  Well, I choose the highway !


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